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Loveless being on the brink of losing her existence..
Dec. 12th, 2007 | 05:51 pm
I give up.
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Jollibean
Dec. 10th, 2007 | 05:06 pm
mood: 
working
So here I am in the office reading Carlin and I've got a msg from Mr(s). So Han, asking me what I was doing. After I told him I was reading, somehow, he went into a huge fit and went on rambling. I stopped reading. Not Carlin, So Han.
Fatigue and Sleepiness, not a working woman make. Sticking to 2-year plan now. Feel the urgency. EXTREMELY EXTREMELY URGENT!!
SHe works hard for her money...
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Gloomy Sunday..
Dec. 2nd, 2007 | 09:47 am
mood: 
blank
Some days you have this funny sense that you woke up and found that you have absolutely nothing. The echoing emptiness in your being rattles the idea of your existence..Bah!! What am I thinking? I'm no bloody poet!!
So simple,I woke up, feel like shit, tried to go back to sleep, but decided not to. Got up, felt worse cos of some level of hostility provided by people close to you. Wonder what the hell is going on. Wanna get outta the house and get some fresh air, but don't know if it's a good idea. Feel lost, feel dejected, basically shite.
Decided.."You know what? Fuck it..I'm done. I quit.."
Now let's move on..
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Just another day..
Nov. 27th, 2007 | 04:10 pm
mood: 
exhausted
Head Head Head...Now back..
Old bones...
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On the bar counter on a Tuesday morning..
Nov. 13th, 2007 | 12:15 am
mood: 
discontent
What is it weighed against?
Am I really not even good enough despite everything I've done?
What is lacking? What did I do or did not do?
I have no directions because I have no answers.
Sitting around guessing is not my forte. What should I do? What can I do?
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Betrayal
Nov. 11th, 2007 | 11:29 pm
mood: 
crushed
Am I so dense to not have seen it from the start?
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Red Comments
Nov. 7th, 2007 | 05:04 pm
mood: 
bored
It's not difficult to make a woman happy.
> 2. a companion - Let's try having a relationship with Hollow Man.
> 3. a lover - Let's hear a guy actually say "Sex is not an issue".
> 4. a brother - This is wrong on so many levels.
> 5. a father - Worse!
> 6. a master - Of what? None?!
> 7. a chef - Hah! Please do not make me choke.
> 8. an electrician - I'd rather pay someone else to do it in case the house burns down.
> 9. a carpenter - Guy + Saw = Trouble
> 10. a plumber - Once again, I'd rather pay someone else to do it.
> 11. a mechanic - Guys will THINK they are mechanics without you even expecting that outta them. Rest assured..
> 12. a decorator - God, NO!!
> 13. a stylist - Haha..*choke*
> 14. a sexologist - Well, that depends doesn't it?
> 15. a gynecologist - Have you seen male gyneacologists?
> 16. a psychologist - Psycho or Psychologist?
> 17. a pest exterminator - How often do you really call for a pest exterminator? Really..
> 18. a psychiatrist - Psychiatrist, Psychologist, schnitz, ditz..
> 19. a healer - Who the hell wants to screw a witch doctor?
> 20. a good listener - Now you're expecting too much..
> 21. an organizer - Hahahahaha...be extremely satisfied when he does not create a mess!!
> 22. a good father - Why is this father thing so rampant??
> 23. very clean - Would anyone date a hobo?
> 24. sympathetic - Towards??
> 25. athletic - ?? Since when did "athletic" become listed as a virtue?
> 26. warm - Huh?
> 27. attentive - If listening is a problem already, let's not pursue this anymore..
> 28. gallant - Omg..*chuckle*
> 29. intelligent - Define intelligent..Please...
> 30. funny - Ok..I'll be biased. I do look for funny.
> 31. creative - I don't wanna go there...
> 32. tender - We looking for meat here?!
> 33. strong - First tender then strong..Make up your damn mind..
> 34. understanding - refer "24. Sympathetic"
> 35. tolerant - refer "34. understanding"
> 36. prudent - What?!
> 37. ambitious - There is a difference between able & ambitious..
> 38. capable - In terms of?
> 39. courageous - Are we living in the medieval period? First gallant..now this..
> 40. determined - refer "37. Ambitious"
> 41. true - True or Truthful?
> 42. dependable - Ok..I'm not looking to reading a thesaurus..
> 43. passionate - Would a guy want to be with a frigid girl? Vice versa my dear friend..
> 44. compassionate - The save-stray-kittens kind??!!
>
> WITHOUT FORGETTING TO:
>
> 45. give her compliments regularly - no point if it ain't true eh?
> 46. love shopping - Love shopping and prudent don't really go hand in hand..
> 47. be honest - refer "41. true"
> 48. be very rich - and that'll be because??
> 49. not stress her out - Now that's a feat..
> 50. not look at other girls - Hey..we look too...
>
> AND AT THE SAME TIME, YOU MUST ALSO:
>
> 51. give her lots of attention, but
> expect little yourself - Hahahahaha...please..
> 52. give her lots of time, especially
> time for herself - 51 vs. 52
> 53. give her lots of space, never
> worrying about where she goes - 51 vs. 52 vs. 53
>
> IT IS VERY IMPORTANT:
>
> 54. Never to forget:
> * birthdays
> * anniversaries
> * arrangements she makes
> - I have nothing to say about these -
>
>
> HOW TO MAKE A MAN HAPPY
>
> 1. Show up naked
> 2. Bring beer & food
- Then walk out passing out the food? Please...there's a reason for the need to show up naked -
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Nightmare Galore..
Oct. 30th, 2007 | 01:11 pm
mood: 
confused
The world's too fragile for your lies, your torment and my pain...
I woke up in the middle of the night, mouthing those words. What going on?
I remembered a friend told me once. It's less painful being with someone you do not love. There'll be no loneliness when you're apart, no pain when he lies, no sadness when he says he does not love you. No dejection when he decides to leave you. No fear starting all over again..
Is that true?
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Shrinking
Oct. 28th, 2007 | 09:50 am
mood: crushed
10am and all I feel is small. Woke up curled up in a ball trying my best not to break into shards of nothing. I can't imagine waking up like this everyday. I am miserable, but does anyone know? Does anyone care? I conclude. No..
And seriously, it's not because I'm ill.
I'm depressed. Not that there's anything wrong with that..
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^^^Conversation for Today^^^
Oct. 24th, 2007 | 04:54 pm
mood: exhausted
Jo: Oei..sms u from Ipoh, tolong u reply me hor..
Me: Shit you la. What dya want? Me in beggar-mode. Don't feel like talking to you..
Jo: F*** la!! Be gd jie mei and check up on you also wrong. Got "hong" you damn jia lat so wanna cheer u up sia. U like that. Waste my time..Bitch..
Me: Wah..ok ok..sorry..me indeed jia lat..me cheng sim..just want the days to pass really quickly..what else you wanna knoe????
*Then comes a long long break from the constant beeping of my phone, after which a message box pops up on my screen*
Jo: DEPRESSED NIA..NOT WORTH MY PHONE BILL..MSN BETTA..
Me: Bloody hell, though you want to cheer me up? Like that also can? Shit you..
Jo: Don't depressed la..If not be like me lor, make stout your best friend..confirm damn happy after that..
Me: Dun wanna talk to you liao. I'd rather work...You go concentrate on being pregnant..
Jo: Please la you..stop being so jia lat can or not? I don't know why you always make yourself believe you're shit. You want to think yu're shit, then go be shit lor. Be upset about it for wut.
Jo: The bigger the piece of dung u tink u r, the bigger the pile of dung you become..
Me: Oei! Enough already hor..
Jo: But you know I luv u deep deep..so I shall go continue concentrating on being preggers and u go be my kid's depressive godmother..Toodles!! Me go picnic with my mom..
~ At that moment I just gave up and observed silence for the rest of the evening..I have not spoken a word since.. ~
